Hey there.
So right from the start, what I am going to tell here might be considered a bizzare horsesh!t by generic majority. However, it just had such an impact on my usual daily routine, I can no longer keep it to myself.
Yesterday (Thursday, 11th) I was moving to a place to try and pick a job in a rather large company, so I had sort of interviews with diffrent people in charge, so they could consider me as an employee. As it used to be, I was said to wait up until the very next day or, rather, Monday, to see what the answer will be. I have high hopes for it, all the while I easily comprehend I might be not the best guy around, but as far as I could see, there's nothing I couldn't handle there.
That is... Nothing much, honestly. Unemployed people go to auditions, they get either rejected or start to work - that's a normal thing, right? Yes. So here it is not what is going to be discussed furthermore, it was just a warmup. What I was about to put down here is way less... normal. In a way.
When I got home from that audition event on Thursday, I had a plenty of time to set things up for tommorow, as I might have had to wake up early and wait a call for the rest of the day. Chances also were, I'm not getting any call that very next thay, though. In fact, it's about 5 pm and it's Friday as I am typing these, and I still had no phonecall, but - huh - whatever. Anyhow, I should've had a sleep. But I didn't /*I did, but a real quick one*/.
I slept for about as little as 3 hours total, and it was in the early morning. I spent the most of the night watching all sorts of goofy stuff on utub. Well, not all sorts. What I've gone for were either "that country's got talent" shows, or wutchmowjo top-10-something, or some rather creepy top-5s (like "top-5 creepiest blah-blah"). That parade went for a long time. I also was watching related videos, occasional ytp-s, videoclips and stuff alike. Moment when things really started to creep me out, was in about 4 am, I think, as I just randomly (as far as I can go over with it, I guess) typed in a search bar something that contained the word "synchronicity".
Now, I already been circling around that theme for about 5 years or something, because (it's not a commonly known fact of my biography, maybe) I was studying psychology in a university after my school graduation. It went for as little as one year, as I totally failed to pass trials set for maths and russian language /*isn't that just funny?*/ courses, but the thing about that word never left my mind alone.
For some point, I knew I'll eventually come back to this. Only... I never realised how far the rabbit hole went there. Just again, as a reminder: most of my talk here could be a random mess and make no commonly appreciated sense. I also beg an apology for various kinds of mistakes I've already made in this text, as well the ones that will come along further. But with little to none more chinese introductions, let me just drop it down bellow.
I started with pretty much a generic video, about where the word "synchronicity" originated from, and a basic commonly-known description as of Carl Jung's vision of it. Nothing really new there, some of the things I've already read back in my student year, so I decided to move along. Then I got to a channel of some afroamerican(?) /*I was about to say "black", but it is now considered offensive, and I do not want it to be offensive in any way*/ guy who makes all kinds of spiritual and mysticism-related vids and kind of tutorials, right? And the reason I was brought there, was the video called "Synchronicity: Sacred Geometry, Consciousness, & Ancient Wisdom" /*yeah, I just copied the title w/o giving any credit to the owner, please do not take it as a violent act*/ and, more specifically, becuase it has numbers on it's thumb image, so I went curious, if it has to do anything with the number 23, occasionaly. It didn't. No, I mean, of course it did - because there was a whole theme of numerology to it - but no 23 exact number, ever circulating there. Except 23 is a 24-digits variation of "11 o'clock". If that makes any sense.
One thing to add here, is that the guy went pretty much around everything I could possibly think of, whilst still expanding my vision of the subject matter (if I'm even elegible to say this). Next up it finished with numbers and universal meanings, it just went straight to brain functionality, vibes, arechetypes, and, yeah, it makes a pretty decent, but a long list. Special spot is one infamous number 666, and it's just something I heard for the 1st time from another person about that thing that actually makes perfect sense to me. It also had to do a lot with my avatar. But we'll skip this now.
Moving on, I've found myself stumble upon something a little... OFF. I mean, it was a video titled "Owls, Synchronicity and the UFO Abductee by Mike Clelland" /*now, this man gets credit, I suppose; please don't take anything personally here - it's just a thing about me copying titles of utub vids from my view history log*/. I never did expect these kinds of... relations? Just look at it - owls, UFOs... Um. But that's only on a first glimpse, of course, and we will come back to this eventually, as this is the craziest thing happened within last 24 hours, haha. Mark it that I DID NOT watch it just there, and I wanted to watch another episode of MGS3 let's play instead, but I realised my head was overwhelmed a bit, so I started to circle around in my room about 6 am in the morning, having a hard time trying to figure out where I was even going with all of this, and why I wouldn't just sleep.
About 9 am - or something like this - I woke up, had a shower, and meal, and nothing unusual so far. But then, once I started to switch TV channels (because I was in another part of the house and couldn't reach my PC) I tuned in some good old television instead... Where was I? Ah yes, the TV. So, I was watching some shows, but after a while, mom showed up, and we started talking. We had a decent chat, actually, that lasted for about 4 hours, with brief coffee breaks and me skipping TV channels. What's interesting is that two of those TV shows I stumbled upon (while mashing "CH+" button) were about psychology - and, more specifically - about psychological warfare, hypnosis, and something about making you believe in <something> without you ever noticing /*a bit different from hypnosis and psychological warfare, indeed*/. Both shows featured a man from Russia, a scientist by the surname Bekhterev, who studied the brain and it's capacities, as well as it's connection in between with reality we are facing. Of course, that wasn't some new name for me, but still it was at least refreshing to hear these things.
Unfortunately, I did not quite catch-up with either of those two shows. They were going one after another on separate channels, but the thing about it's was "there", just like "for me", couldn't be ignored. By some sort of coincedence, I have stumbled upon these on TV, while I was searching myself videos about meaningful coincedences just about 3-4 hours prior. And, I couldn't help but discuss that with mother, so we had more of talking to each other rather than watching TV, which is a good thing, as I see it.
So I just sat down and started it. It featured a man, a researcher, who was talking about his own experience with pretty much the subject matter - synchronicity. All the while, it went much deeper, so it gave me a shiver. In fact, I watched the most of this video like literally on the edge of my seat. And the reason for that would be... I suddenly understood what was it all about, and that I had pretty much an event myself of the very close nature in my own experience.
As I watched the video, I had to go to my instugram account and check back to one little photograph I uploaded myself earlier on. Instugram doesn't feature "normal" date format, so instead it said that I uploaded it "34 weeks ago". No big deal, I thought. It didn't really have to do anything with numbers there, as the photo itself was made on November, 2014. The image I uploaded featured two factual photos combined to a small collage, showing an owl (or rather, "owling", due to it was actually quite small) that was sitting on asphalt in the inner like zone of where my work was situated. I mean, my previous work, at a factory.
Returning back to that day in my memory, I remember that me and bunch of other dudes were just moving along the building to reach the entrance, get to our lockers, suit up, and basically get to work. After moving around a corner, things were out of regular, though, because we saw... well, an owl. It was just sitting there, on asphalt, slowly moving it's head around, watching us, and stuff around itself. As I approached it, I pulled out my iPhoun carefully and checked so I can photo it without screwing things up like with random flash or the 'click' sound of taking a photo. I approached the creature, still standing far enough, so I hoped it won't consider me as a source of danger. While I was "aiming" at it, I was thinking to myself: "Hey there! Can I just quickly make a photo, mr. Owl?" it wasn't that much I was expecting for, but the reaction it pulled was like saying it to my face: "Yeah, yeah... do what you have to do, and get off my face!". It was just looking away from me, like I was just so mere and puny, I'm not even considered standing there at all.
WOAH! That makes a mile of text. However, you have to understand my excitement. Even that day, it was still a VERY rare and uncommon thing to have a freaking owl just sit on the ground in front of you. Guys were even joking: "-Hey, what could possibly be more weirder than seeing an owl on your way to work?", other guy replied with this: "- Well, I don't know. Maybe if you be seeing an eagle on your way to work?". But other than that, I wasn't really going anywhere with it, except for that really "expanded" caption I gave to it, and the hashtags.
It's all been already there, and I was totally freaked out. Because, I wasn't pretty much well-aware of what I pulled there, until I saw that video tonight. Initially, I came up with this "owls are not what they seem" from the "Twin Peaks", of course, because it was that one TV series that kept me spooked for, like, a lifetime. So that's why I added it. It was such a bizzare event to see this creature there, in a pretty much urbanised, unnatural setup, that it didn't even really came to mind we were actually quite close to the woods. But it still has too much like facilities or fairly often-visited areas, and even military stuff in this region, so it was completely out of the ordinary for that bird. Or was it a bird, then?...
But that's only there it came up so bright right now, because of the things revealed in this video I've watched, making an INSANELY explosive synchronicity event, I don't really think I had experienced something like this ever before. And, you know, some people some people call it insane, yeah they call it insane. While you, or someone you know, or someone you don't actually know, tries to pull up and tie different types of things together, from someone else's eyesight it would often look like cheating the game, right? For example, I always used to make fun of people trying to "solve" egyptian Pyramids with numbers and values and stuff, because, at some point, it never made any sense to me. SO, I completely understand some will NEVER comprehend what was that man talking about. But the thing is: I did.
And just as the man himself says in the video, it was like a pretty much personal experience, that essentially only the person him/herself would make sense to it, as it might be a distorted view, or, rather, too much of a plain view, from some distant observer. This is why all this kind of stuff makes up so much excitement that I keep typing and typing and typing, not becuase I'm crushed and defeated, and I have noone to talk to, but because I have seen so much, so important, have so much to say - but it's only me who can understand it.
I was hoping to make at least at some point a valid overview of what I've felt, because to pretty much summarise it, it would be like you, interweb-heads, say... a "mind blown". I don't really like this "term" as I see little of value in it, personally. For me, it's more of like "mind refreshed". Like if you are out in the mountains, and it's getting harder and harder to breath, but, all of a sudden, you make a good full lungs of fresh air, and your blood just flashing through your body. Something like this. I cannot come up with a better thing, sorry for that. I'm also missing that phonecall, but maybe I just have to wait until Monday, and do not worry all this much, even if they kick me out like rubbish. I would like to put my worries away for a little, and maybe feel some peace for at least this weekend, hopefully.
Thanks to whoever read this.
/*P.S.: tried to fix some mistakes. Hope it's now readable.*/
So right from the start, what I am going to tell here might be considered a bizzare horsesh!t by generic majority. However, it just had such an impact on my usual daily routine, I can no longer keep it to myself.
Long story short.
Yesterday (Thursday, 11th) I was moving to a place to try and pick a job in a rather large company, so I had sort of interviews with diffrent people in charge, so they could consider me as an employee. As it used to be, I was said to wait up until the very next day or, rather, Monday, to see what the answer will be. I have high hopes for it, all the while I easily comprehend I might be not the best guy around, but as far as I could see, there's nothing I couldn't handle there.
That is... Nothing much, honestly. Unemployed people go to auditions, they get either rejected or start to work - that's a normal thing, right? Yes. So here it is not what is going to be discussed furthermore, it was just a warmup. What I was about to put down here is way less... normal. In a way.
When I got home from that audition event on Thursday, I had a plenty of time to set things up for tommorow, as I might have had to wake up early and wait a call for the rest of the day. Chances also were, I'm not getting any call that very next thay, though. In fact, it's about 5 pm and it's Friday as I am typing these, and I still had no phonecall, but - huh - whatever. Anyhow, I should've had a sleep. But I didn't /*I did, but a real quick one*/.
So... what happened?
I slept for about as little as 3 hours total, and it was in the early morning. I spent the most of the night watching all sorts of goofy stuff on utub. Well, not all sorts. What I've gone for were either "that country's got talent" shows, or wutchmowjo top-10-something, or some rather creepy top-5s (like "top-5 creepiest blah-blah"). That parade went for a long time. I also was watching related videos, occasional ytp-s, videoclips and stuff alike. Moment when things really started to creep me out, was in about 4 am, I think, as I just randomly (as far as I can go over with it, I guess) typed in a search bar something that contained the word "synchronicity".
Now, I already been circling around that theme for about 5 years or something, because (it's not a commonly known fact of my biography, maybe) I was studying psychology in a university after my school graduation. It went for as little as one year, as I totally failed to pass trials set for maths and russian language /*isn't that just funny?*/ courses, but the thing about that word never left my mind alone.
For some point, I knew I'll eventually come back to this. Only... I never realised how far the rabbit hole went there. Just again, as a reminder: most of my talk here could be a random mess and make no commonly appreciated sense. I also beg an apology for various kinds of mistakes I've already made in this text, as well the ones that will come along further. But with little to none more chinese introductions, let me just drop it down bellow.
Brain
I started with pretty much a generic video, about where the word "synchronicity" originated from, and a basic commonly-known description as of Carl Jung's vision of it. Nothing really new there, some of the things I've already read back in my student year, so I decided to move along. Then I got to a channel of some afroamerican(?) /*I was about to say "black", but it is now considered offensive, and I do not want it to be offensive in any way*/ guy who makes all kinds of spiritual and mysticism-related vids and kind of tutorials, right? And the reason I was brought there, was the video called "Synchronicity: Sacred Geometry, Consciousness, & Ancient Wisdom" /*yeah, I just copied the title w/o giving any credit to the owner, please do not take it as a violent act*/ and, more specifically, becuase it has numbers on it's thumb image, so I went curious, if it has to do anything with the number 23, occasionaly. It didn't. No, I mean, of course it did - because there was a whole theme of numerology to it - but no 23 exact number, ever circulating there. Except 23 is a 24-digits variation of "11 o'clock". If that makes any sense.
One thing to add here, is that the guy went pretty much around everything I could possibly think of, whilst still expanding my vision of the subject matter (if I'm even elegible to say this). Next up it finished with numbers and universal meanings, it just went straight to brain functionality, vibes, arechetypes, and, yeah, it makes a pretty decent, but a long list. Special spot is one infamous number 666, and it's just something I heard for the 1st time from another person about that thing that actually makes perfect sense to me. It also had to do a lot with my avatar. But we'll skip this now.
Moving on, I've found myself stumble upon something a little... OFF. I mean, it was a video titled "Owls, Synchronicity and the UFO Abductee by Mike Clelland" /*now, this man gets credit, I suppose; please don't take anything personally here - it's just a thing about me copying titles of utub vids from my view history log*/. I never did expect these kinds of... relations? Just look at it - owls, UFOs... Um. But that's only on a first glimpse, of course, and we will come back to this eventually, as this is the craziest thing happened within last 24 hours, haha. Mark it that I DID NOT watch it just there, and I wanted to watch another episode of MGS3 let's play instead, but I realised my head was overwhelmed a bit, so I started to circle around in my room about 6 am in the morning, having a hard time trying to figure out where I was even going with all of this, and why I wouldn't just sleep.
Then I fell asleep and woke up to watch some TV.
About 9 am - or something like this - I woke up, had a shower, and meal, and nothing unusual so far. But then, once I started to switch TV channels (because I was in another part of the house and couldn't reach my PC) I tuned in some good old television instead... Where was I? Ah yes, the TV. So, I was watching some shows, but after a while, mom showed up, and we started talking. We had a decent chat, actually, that lasted for about 4 hours, with brief coffee breaks and me skipping TV channels. What's interesting is that two of those TV shows I stumbled upon (while mashing "CH+" button) were about psychology - and, more specifically - about psychological warfare, hypnosis, and something about making you believe in <something> without you ever noticing /*a bit different from hypnosis and psychological warfare, indeed*/. Both shows featured a man from Russia, a scientist by the surname Bekhterev, who studied the brain and it's capacities, as well as it's connection in between with reality we are facing. Of course, that wasn't some new name for me, but still it was at least refreshing to hear these things.
Unfortunately, I did not quite catch-up with either of those two shows. They were going one after another on separate channels, but the thing about it's was "there", just like "for me", couldn't be ignored. By some sort of coincedence, I have stumbled upon these on TV, while I was searching myself videos about meaningful coincedences just about 3-4 hours prior. And, I couldn't help but discuss that with mother, so we had more of talking to each other rather than watching TV, which is a good thing, as I see it.
...and after that, I returned to my room to watch that video.
So I just sat down and started it. It featured a man, a researcher, who was talking about his own experience with pretty much the subject matter - synchronicity. All the while, it went much deeper, so it gave me a shiver. In fact, I watched the most of this video like literally on the edge of my seat. And the reason for that would be... I suddenly understood what was it all about, and that I had pretty much an event myself of the very close nature in my own experience.
As I watched the video, I had to go to my instugram account and check back to one little photograph I uploaded myself earlier on. Instugram doesn't feature "normal" date format, so instead it said that I uploaded it "34 weeks ago". No big deal, I thought. It didn't really have to do anything with numbers there, as the photo itself was made on November, 2014. The image I uploaded featured two factual photos combined to a small collage, showing an owl (or rather, "owling", due to it was actually quite small) that was sitting on asphalt in the inner like zone of where my work was situated. I mean, my previous work, at a factory.
Returning back to that day in my memory, I remember that me and bunch of other dudes were just moving along the building to reach the entrance, get to our lockers, suit up, and basically get to work. After moving around a corner, things were out of regular, though, because we saw... well, an owl. It was just sitting there, on asphalt, slowly moving it's head around, watching us, and stuff around itself. As I approached it, I pulled out my iPhoun carefully and checked so I can photo it without screwing things up like with random flash or the 'click' sound of taking a photo. I approached the creature, still standing far enough, so I hoped it won't consider me as a source of danger. While I was "aiming" at it, I was thinking to myself: "Hey there! Can I just quickly make a photo, mr. Owl?" it wasn't that much I was expecting for, but the reaction it pulled was like saying it to my face: "Yeah, yeah... do what you have to do, and get off my face!". It was just looking away from me, like I was just so mere and puny, I'm not even considered standing there at all.
WOAH! That makes a mile of text. However, you have to understand my excitement. Even that day, it was still a VERY rare and uncommon thing to have a freaking owl just sit on the ground in front of you. Guys were even joking: "-Hey, what could possibly be more weirder than seeing an owl on your way to work?", other guy replied with this: "- Well, I don't know. Maybe if you be seeing an eagle on your way to work?". But other than that, I wasn't really going anywhere with it, except for that really "expanded" caption I gave to it, and the hashtags.
The caption
It's all been already there, and I was totally freaked out. Because, I wasn't pretty much well-aware of what I pulled there, until I saw that video tonight. Initially, I came up with this "owls are not what they seem" from the "Twin Peaks", of course, because it was that one TV series that kept me spooked for, like, a lifetime. So that's why I added it. It was such a bizzare event to see this creature there, in a pretty much urbanised, unnatural setup, that it didn't even really came to mind we were actually quite close to the woods. But it still has too much like facilities or fairly often-visited areas, and even military stuff in this region, so it was completely out of the ordinary for that bird. Or was it a bird, then?...
But that's only there it came up so bright right now, because of the things revealed in this video I've watched, making an INSANELY explosive synchronicity event, I don't really think I had experienced something like this ever before. And, you know, some people some people call it insane, yeah they call it insane. While you, or someone you know, or someone you don't actually know, tries to pull up and tie different types of things together, from someone else's eyesight it would often look like cheating the game, right? For example, I always used to make fun of people trying to "solve" egyptian Pyramids with numbers and values and stuff, because, at some point, it never made any sense to me. SO, I completely understand some will NEVER comprehend what was that man talking about. But the thing is: I did.
And just as the man himself says in the video, it was like a pretty much personal experience, that essentially only the person him/herself would make sense to it, as it might be a distorted view, or, rather, too much of a plain view, from some distant observer. This is why all this kind of stuff makes up so much excitement that I keep typing and typing and typing, not becuase I'm crushed and defeated, and I have noone to talk to, but because I have seen so much, so important, have so much to say - but it's only me who can understand it.
Instead of conclusion
I was hoping to make at least at some point a valid overview of what I've felt, because to pretty much summarise it, it would be like you, interweb-heads, say... a "mind blown". I don't really like this "term" as I see little of value in it, personally. For me, it's more of like "mind refreshed". Like if you are out in the mountains, and it's getting harder and harder to breath, but, all of a sudden, you make a good full lungs of fresh air, and your blood just flashing through your body. Something like this. I cannot come up with a better thing, sorry for that. I'm also missing that phonecall, but maybe I just have to wait until Monday, and do not worry all this much, even if they kick me out like rubbish. I would like to put my worries away for a little, and maybe feel some peace for at least this weekend, hopefully.
Thanks to whoever read this.
/*P.S.: tried to fix some mistakes. Hope it's now readable.*/
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