...and I am just in the very same room as before.
In the meantime, I was rather surprised (yet again) how much polluted a human mind could be. So much hate, and for what reasons? A female singer leaves a rather sweaty-dirty-drunk "music band" and starts doing solo records. Publishing her first track, no trace of what has been done previously in career -- simple words, no swearing, calm "synth-pop" arrangement and simplistic "inspired by 80s" video. The vid hits 200k views on utub and about 2k "likes". And nearly 10k dislikes. Nice.
What the f@#k, seriously? Where's the reason for this negativity? I can certainly agree that the video was kind of silly, and lyrics might feel awkward... And yet still, who the f@#k told you it should be something else? I just can't let go that feeling that it's just a plain and simple "hate train" follow-up from that f@#king band's "fan base", and nothing more. I don't comprehend what could be achieved with such an approach. This is just f@#ked up, man.
Another example of how that sh!t works is the recent CoD reveal trailer. And before I say anything else: I did not like that video too. It just did not feel good. At all. But what's funny is that all the other people, throughout the globe, would just do the same thing and press the "thumbs down" button just for the fun of it. Why not? It's already knee-deep in hate, let's make it even funnier, shall we?
...And all of this makes me produce some ~neurochemicals~ in my body that would make me feel angry in return, because I just SEE that this is the same sh!t repeating over and over -- a patern, self-reproducting in any suitable and non-suitable form. Opinions may vary, everyone knows that. But for some f@#king reason, should some punk ass start a riot - whatever the situation is - all other idiots around are likely to join, often w/o any recollection of what's going on. Just this: "ah, f@#k, let's do this!".
You don't even need to proccess anything. Just believe you hate something. A song, a singer, a trailer, a company, a government, a nation, or the whole fkn world! Reasons are always there. Some are more appealing than others, but in the end - everything hits a dead end. Any road of violence will lead to more violence. And this lesson was repeated so many times, I cannot grasp how much. With that tremendous amount of hatred, how in the world we're still alive? And why?
I guess all of that "outcast" state of my life situation just pushed me to think this over again, again, and again. Things that I've found relaxing and amusing aren't the same anymore. Even the whole "spiritual" "esoteric" and "what-else-it-might-have-been-called" stuff just stopped popping. My brain feels like a swamp often. I can't do anything about from as far as I see. I wish I could... There's something good in all of this violence and absurdity, but you have to pull yourself together in order to touch it.
One other thing, apart from how to deal with all the fkn anxiety and social disorders and sh!t like that, is the question why is it so hard to just let go hate and stop boil it over? There are much more benefits of remaining neutral to certain events rather than going fist fighting where it doesn't need to be done. For some reason, to hurt is much easier than to help. Something twisted is going on with the universe if it works this way - because it will ultimately lead to a self-annihilation. But that's a subject for all different kind of philosophers out there - I am just a junkie "lost soul" type of a guy, a son that is still in his playground.
Maybe all the mysterious talks and paranormal stuff is there with us for a reason. Just as the stories about flying saucers fuel the interest to continue to look around in the night sky. Maybe we're all lost souls and we forgot what it feels like to dream big and to have hope. Oh, and also maybe that's the reason that vid from Twenty One Pilots just hit 367 millions of views.
Whatever, man
In the meantime, I was rather surprised (yet again) how much polluted a human mind could be. So much hate, and for what reasons? A female singer leaves a rather sweaty-dirty-drunk "music band" and starts doing solo records. Publishing her first track, no trace of what has been done previously in career -- simple words, no swearing, calm "synth-pop" arrangement and simplistic "inspired by 80s" video. The vid hits 200k views on utub and about 2k "likes". And nearly 10k dislikes. Nice.
What the f@#k, seriously? Where's the reason for this negativity? I can certainly agree that the video was kind of silly, and lyrics might feel awkward... And yet still, who the f@#k told you it should be something else? I just can't let go that feeling that it's just a plain and simple "hate train" follow-up from that f@#king band's "fan base", and nothing more. I don't comprehend what could be achieved with such an approach. This is just f@#ked up, man.
Another example of how that sh!t works is the recent CoD reveal trailer. And before I say anything else: I did not like that video too. It just did not feel good. At all. But what's funny is that all the other people, throughout the globe, would just do the same thing and press the "thumbs down" button just for the fun of it. Why not? It's already knee-deep in hate, let's make it even funnier, shall we?
...And all of this makes me produce some ~neurochemicals~ in my body that would make me feel angry in return, because I just SEE that this is the same sh!t repeating over and over -- a patern, self-reproducting in any suitable and non-suitable form. Opinions may vary, everyone knows that. But for some f@#king reason, should some punk ass start a riot - whatever the situation is - all other idiots around are likely to join, often w/o any recollection of what's going on. Just this: "ah, f@#k, let's do this!".
The simplicity of this kills me.
You don't even need to proccess anything. Just believe you hate something. A song, a singer, a trailer, a company, a government, a nation, or the whole fkn world! Reasons are always there. Some are more appealing than others, but in the end - everything hits a dead end. Any road of violence will lead to more violence. And this lesson was repeated so many times, I cannot grasp how much. With that tremendous amount of hatred, how in the world we're still alive? And why?
I guess all of that "outcast" state of my life situation just pushed me to think this over again, again, and again. Things that I've found relaxing and amusing aren't the same anymore. Even the whole "spiritual" "esoteric" and "what-else-it-might-have-been-called" stuff just stopped popping. My brain feels like a swamp often. I can't do anything about from as far as I see. I wish I could... There's something good in all of this violence and absurdity, but you have to pull yourself together in order to touch it.
One other thing, apart from how to deal with all the fkn anxiety and social disorders and sh!t like that, is the question why is it so hard to just let go hate and stop boil it over? There are much more benefits of remaining neutral to certain events rather than going fist fighting where it doesn't need to be done. For some reason, to hurt is much easier than to help. Something twisted is going on with the universe if it works this way - because it will ultimately lead to a self-annihilation. But that's a subject for all different kind of philosophers out there - I am just a junkie "lost soul" type of a guy, a son that is still in his playground.
Maybe all the mysterious talks and paranormal stuff is there with us for a reason. Just as the stories about flying saucers fuel the interest to continue to look around in the night sky. Maybe we're all lost souls and we forgot what it feels like to dream big and to have hope. Oh, and also maybe that's the reason that vid from Twenty One Pilots just hit 367 millions of views.
