Hello once again.
Nothing really changed regarding my position in social system (embarrassed or not, here I am). In fact, the last post I wrote this May might have been the last for a while, marking a perfect one year circle of this blog before it eventually dies out. But who am I fooling here? Sooner or later I'll be back to write another thing, here or there.
Since December, 2015, my life got pretty much a mess. I already described before how I break my day/night cycles and end up watching/listening some "koo koo" stuff. I have been wondering does this have any meaning at all at some point ever since. At one perspective, I am on a railway to madness. On the other hand, this could be quite the opposite. It all depends on how you look at it.
Some people think life is about making money, buying stuff, eating food, having a good sleep, sex, health, whatever. And that's about it. I guess you could say they stop searching for something other than basic aspects of this life. Who could blame them for this? They have kids to raise, parents to take care of, cats to feed, you name it. However, this doesn't mean these people not having the "weird stuff going on". In most cases (as far as I am concerned), happen they spot something out of the ordinary (far out), they either: a)try to categorize the event as something normal and explainable; or b)try to forget the experience and pretend it never happened. I guess this is what happened to me as well, more or less.
Now, it's very egoistic in a sense, but I think I have dismissed a lot of strange stuff like that. And it's me, who always loved "weird" things since my early years. Most of the people who knew me from school years will prove that I am not from the crowd. However, if you don't want to be kicked out of society, you gotta quit talking about certain things so others won't label you as a complete lunatic and weirdo.
With all of that being said, I would say yes, I had weird stuff going on. Maybe it's not as "flashy" as before, not as theatrical, but it's still there. Recent thoughts on this really had me to go on to write down everything, but it feels out of my reach right now. I'll try to focus on a few fresh tides and maybe portray them in a right way for history.
One of the weird connections that has emerged in my neural network was the whole idea of "hacking". I mean, the computer hacking (or slicing). I was never really into programming in the first place, so I hardly understand how hacking actually works. I have a very basic concept of how data stealing is performed or how some programs could be used in order to trace user's actions. Like phishing, keyloggers, trojans and stuff like that. I only knew about hackers from media, all the while I had a few rare ocassions where my computer was infected with a virus (two times I guess; both situations occured thanks to online porn).
I am not a caveman when it comes to use of PCs, and yet I understand I am far outmatched by many others who know how to write the code. So, one way or another, I expect hacking to be quite an interesting and difficult thing. Not my cup of tea, however. What I did not expect at all was that it could intertwine with my "weird stuff" "library".
It started when my mother's social network page was hacked. I described this in detail in one of my previous posts. So then, few days later, I got an owl in a movie about hackers (again, described in that same post). I guess the filmmakers had their own reasons to put it there, but the timing when I saw this couldn't be better.
Another spot was actually pretty funny as it was in a game, in a specific location. In fact, it was your character's hideout, so I could have noticed it from the beginning (but I did not). It was only later on, after a few good chat talks, when I saw the name of the motel where Aiden had his hardware:
Do I need to bring up the game's catch phrase? "Everything is connected". I must say, it all seems silly for me as I write it down. But, silly or not, something behind all these words and images still make my brain go bananas, if it even makes sense. I also want to point out that a few of the many - I am not sure how to call it - symbols? - are being overused right now. This will include the number 23 as well as the "eye in the pyramid". I will take about that in some other post.
I was listening to podcasts as I was playing MGSV:TPP early on this morning (did not sleep the night again) and it lead me further with wondering, so I stopped MGS and, instead, turned utub on, because I remembered that the host of the show that I recently discovered said they gonna talk about RAW in one of the next episodes. Haven't found what I was looking for specifically, I started to listen to another podcast on this channel.
The guest, Jeff Ritzmann, talked about some really bizzare experiences he had in his youth. I haven't got to the end of it, because I had a very clear reason to stop right in the middle and get here to this crappy blog: /*here it is*/ In the 2nd part of the show (a separate video), I decided I would like to minimize utub and go back to gaming. The game I suddenly decided to play was Peggle Deluxe. It was perfectly minimalistic, as I played it in a window, with all sound volume toned down, so I could easily follow with what were people on the show discussing. So, here I am, playing Peggle while listening the podcast where man talks about the very "weird stuff". Just as I finish another level and starting to go to another 'Peggle Master", he says: "...Keep a journal" "this is crucial". Ok, guess what I see on my screen at the very same time I hear these words? Yeah, an owl.
That's a screenshot from my desktop (yes, I have Quiet "Cloaked in Silence" promo as my wallpaper, I am that much basement dweller). I haven't checked out what this "zen ball" ability is yet, as I immediately switched to my browser and opened my blog to write this down. Just once again, timing was perfect. I bought "Peggle Deluxe" on this year's stim summer sale, while it was stuck in my wishlist for more than 4 years. I was stuck with this "dragon master" and I managed to beat his levels in the adventure mode precisely while listening to this specific point of the podcast, and I got an owl right in my monitor where he /*the "Owl Peggle Master"*/ (let's pretend?) says "Our journey will take us where we are meant to be. Or maybe next door. Close enough". This was funny. But it was funny and beyond, because I doubt any other person in the world will get this joke as I did at that moment.
...I understand this looks cheap and cheesy, or even worse -- senseless. As for me, those are very nice jokes that require some background to be appreciated. "Inside jokes". I must also state here, pretty clear, that all the "weird stuff" is hard to come across for some people, but it doesn't mean it don't deserve respect. All around the globe, throught history, people will have those "mystical experiences". Some will tell they hear voices, some will tell they saw UFOs or lights in the sky, or a Bigfoot. People still, up to this day, easily dismiss most of the stories. However, there is some ground under these different stories, and something is definately at play. I'll be honest: few years back I'd probably twist a finger at a temple, but now I am much more open. I am eager to know more of these stories from real experiencers. And what I see more and more often, is that many of us had weird synchronicities or "paranormal activity" in our lives, but we won't talk about it because of the fear to get ridiculed. Well, guess what? I don't fear this anymore.
What I fear now is that I could lose my mind. That's not much funny, if you ask me.
Nothing really changed regarding my position in social system (embarrassed or not, here I am). In fact, the last post I wrote this May might have been the last for a while, marking a perfect one year circle of this blog before it eventually dies out. But who am I fooling here? Sooner or later I'll be back to write another thing, here or there.
Weird stuff going on?
Since December, 2015, my life got pretty much a mess. I already described before how I break my day/night cycles and end up watching/listening some "koo koo" stuff. I have been wondering does this have any meaning at all at some point ever since. At one perspective, I am on a railway to madness. On the other hand, this could be quite the opposite. It all depends on how you look at it.
Some people think life is about making money, buying stuff, eating food, having a good sleep, sex, health, whatever. And that's about it. I guess you could say they stop searching for something other than basic aspects of this life. Who could blame them for this? They have kids to raise, parents to take care of, cats to feed, you name it. However, this doesn't mean these people not having the "weird stuff going on". In most cases (as far as I am concerned), happen they spot something out of the ordinary (far out), they either: a)try to categorize the event as something normal and explainable; or b)try to forget the experience and pretend it never happened. I guess this is what happened to me as well, more or less.
Now, it's very egoistic in a sense, but I think I have dismissed a lot of strange stuff like that. And it's me, who always loved "weird" things since my early years. Most of the people who knew me from school years will prove that I am not from the crowd. However, if you don't want to be kicked out of society, you gotta quit talking about certain things so others won't label you as a complete lunatic and weirdo.
With all of that being said, I would say yes, I had weird stuff going on. Maybe it's not as "flashy" as before, not as theatrical, but it's still there. Recent thoughts on this really had me to go on to write down everything, but it feels out of my reach right now. I'll try to focus on a few fresh tides and maybe portray them in a right way for history.
Hackers, owls and the summer sale.
One of the weird connections that has emerged in my neural network was the whole idea of "hacking". I mean, the computer hacking (or slicing). I was never really into programming in the first place, so I hardly understand how hacking actually works. I have a very basic concept of how data stealing is performed or how some programs could be used in order to trace user's actions. Like phishing, keyloggers, trojans and stuff like that. I only knew about hackers from media, all the while I had a few rare ocassions where my computer was infected with a virus (two times I guess; both situations occured thanks to online porn).
I am not a caveman when it comes to use of PCs, and yet I understand I am far outmatched by many others who know how to write the code. So, one way or another, I expect hacking to be quite an interesting and difficult thing. Not my cup of tea, however. What I did not expect at all was that it could intertwine with my "weird stuff" "library".
It started when my mother's social network page was hacked. I described this in detail in one of my previous posts. So then, few days later, I got an owl in a movie about hackers (again, described in that same post). I guess the filmmakers had their own reasons to put it there, but the timing when I saw this couldn't be better.
Another spot was actually pretty funny as it was in a game, in a specific location. In fact, it was your character's hideout, so I could have noticed it from the beginning (but I did not). It was only later on, after a few good chat talks, when I saw the name of the motel where Aiden had his hardware:
Do I need to bring up the game's catch phrase? "Everything is connected". I must say, it all seems silly for me as I write it down. But, silly or not, something behind all these words and images still make my brain go bananas, if it even makes sense. I also want to point out that a few of the many - I am not sure how to call it - symbols? - are being overused right now. This will include the number 23 as well as the "eye in the pyramid". I will take about that in some other post.
(continuing)
I was listening to podcasts as I was playing MGSV:TPP early on this morning (did not sleep the night again) and it lead me further with wondering, so I stopped MGS and, instead, turned utub on, because I remembered that the host of the show that I recently discovered said they gonna talk about RAW in one of the next episodes. Haven't found what I was looking for specifically, I started to listen to another podcast on this channel.
The guest, Jeff Ritzmann, talked about some really bizzare experiences he had in his youth. I haven't got to the end of it, because I had a very clear reason to stop right in the middle and get here to this crappy blog: /*here it is*/ In the 2nd part of the show (a separate video), I decided I would like to minimize utub and go back to gaming. The game I suddenly decided to play was Peggle Deluxe. It was perfectly minimalistic, as I played it in a window, with all sound volume toned down, so I could easily follow with what were people on the show discussing. So, here I am, playing Peggle while listening the podcast where man talks about the very "weird stuff". Just as I finish another level and starting to go to another 'Peggle Master", he says: "...Keep a journal" "this is crucial". Ok, guess what I see on my screen at the very same time I hear these words? Yeah, an owl.
That's a screenshot from my desktop (yes, I have Quiet "Cloaked in Silence" promo as my wallpaper, I am that much basement dweller). I haven't checked out what this "zen ball" ability is yet, as I immediately switched to my browser and opened my blog to write this down. Just once again, timing was perfect. I bought "Peggle Deluxe" on this year's stim summer sale, while it was stuck in my wishlist for more than 4 years. I was stuck with this "dragon master" and I managed to beat his levels in the adventure mode precisely while listening to this specific point of the podcast, and I got an owl right in my monitor where he /*the "Owl Peggle Master"*/ (let's pretend?) says "Our journey will take us where we are meant to be. Or maybe next door. Close enough". This was funny. But it was funny and beyond, because I doubt any other person in the world will get this joke as I did at that moment.
Blewrgh...
...I understand this looks cheap and cheesy, or even worse -- senseless. As for me, those are very nice jokes that require some background to be appreciated. "Inside jokes". I must also state here, pretty clear, that all the "weird stuff" is hard to come across for some people, but it doesn't mean it don't deserve respect. All around the globe, throught history, people will have those "mystical experiences". Some will tell they hear voices, some will tell they saw UFOs or lights in the sky, or a Bigfoot. People still, up to this day, easily dismiss most of the stories. However, there is some ground under these different stories, and something is definately at play. I'll be honest: few years back I'd probably twist a finger at a temple, but now I am much more open. I am eager to know more of these stories from real experiencers. And what I see more and more often, is that many of us had weird synchronicities or "paranormal activity" in our lives, but we won't talk about it because of the fear to get ridiculed. Well, guess what? I don't fear this anymore.
What I fear now is that I could lose my mind. That's not much funny, if you ask me.
