What the actual f**k ?!

Seriously, now?

"Sapiens dominabitur astris"... you f**king kidding me?

...All this buzz in the "east european" region makes me sick. To Hell with you!

On Hold

Hey there.

I'm still alive so far (maybe those are not the best words available, but it feels like appropriate ones). I don't actively do anything on my social network pages or this little place of misery here, but I'm still around. Maybe this is due to I'm a bit tired of all the repeating thoughts cycling in my mind. I am not really sure; but, however, it's not that I keep silence so I wouldn't embarrass myself. I think, soon enough I won't be worrying about that at all. Life gets more and more ridiculous on a massive scale. Like, all those sh!tty TV shows and godawful videos on web. People do some really fkd up things, and I do understand I'm still in a fine distance away from that (that's what I'm grateful). Little things that I post here are of no importance whatsoever in a world where parents can shoot down own children on a sunday morning.

...but in the meantime,

I can't help but sense that something big is going on. It might as well be nothing, but the whole situation around the world is getting a bit too dramatic. The whole US presidency thing and the mass hysteria around my country in particular, and many many other things that are way less visible but still out there.

That being said, I really want (I really do) to sit down and type some thoughts down, but the things is... I barely get the mood needed. Somehow it's getting hard to get around and form some cool-looking sentences. More than this; I have an idea in my mind to put down some of my childhood nightmares and other stuff, just for the sake of remembering it better later myself, and I have this idea for like 3-4 months; still, I can't pull it together and just sit down and do it.

Usually I got virtually no troubles writing walls of text, but this time it just falls apart. There have been many times when I can't even walk up to my computer. And other times I just forget all about it and go play some sh!tty games like CoD Ghosts.

In short conclusion

I want to get back on the "weird stuff" because there are a few things I want to throw out and kind of document here, I just need to get in the right mood. In reality (whatever that means), I'm still sitting by the ocean waiting for that job and there's little to no chance I'm getting it. Damn.

See ya soon