It's February now.
I've been in this sort of "coma" for almost the whole winter now. Sh!t, it's been some sort the same thing before. I've been unemployed for like an year /*ffs!*/ while both parents were working and my brother was younger, so I had to babysit him. This way, it's no big surprise I can't pull myself together and get something going. I still have an option to try and go for an easy job, but that won't pay much, of course. That wouldn't be all great if I will get payed little, I won't be able to afford some extras only to get some food for my own self. And that's it. And again, I'm in a 4-crew deck and also I'm a man and supposed to be a father in future (I'm very far from this kind of responsibility though).
But all of that is just my usual sh~ttalk. I must organise myself instead of sitting here for another month, week, day. It's of no use. I should be able to get going, I'm not that old and weak just yet.
F***.
I've been in this sort of "coma" for almost the whole winter now. Sh!t, it's been some sort the same thing before. I've been unemployed for like an year /*ffs!*/ while both parents were working and my brother was younger, so I had to babysit him. This way, it's no big surprise I can't pull myself together and get something going. I still have an option to try and go for an easy job, but that won't pay much, of course. That wouldn't be all great if I will get payed little, I won't be able to afford some extras only to get some food for my own self. And that's it. And again, I'm in a 4-crew deck and also I'm a man and supposed to be a father in future (I'm very far from this kind of responsibility though).
But all of that is just my usual sh~ttalk. I must organise myself instead of sitting here for another month, week, day. It's of no use. I should be able to get going, I'm not that old and weak just yet.
F***.
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