Jokes on me

Hello again, dumbell!

Argh... It's even a bit painful. But yes, here I am again. I don't know what the heck is happening to me. It might be spring fever, or I am continiously losing my mind. Whatever. At this point, I start not to care for such determinations. I'll just post quickly what's been ringing in the back of my head, literally minutes ago.

As Short As Possible

I'll be quick here. On April, 5th, I was a guest at friend's place (who phonecalled me on 4th's morning, waking me up), and, since we're very close friends, I went over my recent experiences, and the whole blogging thing, and interwebs as a whole. I'm always very honest and open with this guy, because he values our friendship, and, basically, always ready to hear me out.

I mentioned that idea about internet as a thing that develops it's own ties with reality around it and events that happen in life, like if it had own consciousness /*sounds cheesy AF, huh?*/ or, rather, becoming a wider, open form of "collective consciousness". Now, I heard this theme brought about in one of those podcasts that I've been listening to while playing MGSV:TPP. We talked about it briefly, but not dwelve into the subject all much.

Tonight, within last few hours...

...I re-visited Mike Clelland's blog to check for any new posts. There was, in fact, a new post - just about 50 minutes before I arrived. It was a short note, where the man asks readers to help and repair any broken links to audio interviews. "I am asking for your help. If anyone finds that they cannot click on a link and bring up an audio file, please let me know." /*direct copypaste quote.*/. So I decided: "OK, lemme pick a few podcasts to download, and I'll see if there is anything I could report". And I opened up a podcast page "October of 2009".

Now, as I always do, I tried to download the audio to put it into MGSV:TPP and play it from the game. Guess what happened. Yes, the link did not work. There was an in-built player plugin on the page, so, for some reason, I started to listen to it. It's a rather very "deep waters" podcast that I've listened to, very personal. But... I could certainly relate to many of the subjects of that audio.

After finishing the audio, I did what is "clicking a few links", I read some of the comments, and stuff throughout the blog. Can't tell if there was something I should've memorize here, just not sure. Anyway... The next thing I want to document is that I - somehow - reached the blog post titled "neuron-like nature of the internet". I've read it, and read comments. Oh... Why did they have to bring that "Internet Ouija Board" thing?! Damn.

...And I tried the "Internet Ouija Board".

I've reached the point where I just stop putting logic and rational analysis, that night. I think it doesn't do anything at all. I may be, pretty much, making it all up. And (I will repeat myself again here), it's a hundred times harder if "you're not me". I was tackling all the weird coincedence stuff since early my years. Sometimes it's just funny, other times it's very heavy, and, at times, even scary. I just felt it was too unrealistic. But I liked that idea of internet like a sentient mind, so I just asked it. Yes, as stupid as this might be. Look at the results.